But what good was that to me? I was 24. Two unused writing degrees. Barely able to afford comfortable living in the city I grew up in. Estranged from the increasingly isolated communities around me. Helpless to the absurdity of life. Questioning who I was, lost in who I was ‘meant’ to be, hazy in where I was headed, ignorant in what I wanted.
I kept reflecting, after all — what else was there to do in lockdowns. I read. I rambled. All the while I continued to meet interesting people, talk to them about their life, artistry or that of their heirloom. I collected more textiles that inspired me. Developed my creativity. Fostered my passion… Found my way forward. I would, in the words of Camus, ‘follow ones passions to the extremes dictated by the absurdity of life’.
With the help and support of my friends and family new worlds were realised. This was the assurance of my choices. I opened myself up to the world, and it in turn opened up itself and its possibilities to me.
I would fix up my car, pack my sewing machine in the back, my surfboards on the roof, my pages empty & pen full, my mind open & my passions at peace.